I spent some time really praying about it that day, and though I didn't get an answer, I did think through some possibilities, and felt peace that the answer would be coming...that I just needed to be patient.
Today came a new indication of changes and future answers. Next Sunday night there will be some ward boundary changes in our stake, and we will be getting a new Bishopric. (My daughter and I immediately looked at each other and tried not to smile TOO big when the announcement was made today.)
This also sheds some light on why it is taking so long for my Stake President to get back to me. Obviously he has been very busy.
Elder Holland's incredible talk from last April about the Atonement and how Christ was totally and completely alone at times through His agony.
During the lesson, two things touched me. One was that even though Christ was part God and able to handle what He went through, He was also part mortal, with the fears and pains and anxiety that come with being so. It was a good reminder of what I already knew, but had somehow forgotten, that He truly does understand every pain and feeling that we go through in mortality.
The second thing that really stood out to me today is that Christ was so misjudged and betrayed, that those who yelled for Him to be crucified really did not understand (or did not try to understand) who He was or what was in His heart. Or maybe they were afraid of the influence He was having and the good He was doing. The whole thing was completely unfair, and yet it happened, and it had a purpose, and we are all blessed because of it.
I know my situation pales in comparison to that of our Savior, but I also feel that I am being misjudged for doing things that are good. I just have to have faith that it all has a purpose, and that no matter what pain I may be going through because of it, my Savior understands my pain; He already felt it FOR me, and He can take it away. I just have to let Him take it and let it go, and meanwhile just keep doing the best I can to do what is right for me and my family.